♪♫ ☆ just like honey ♥ ♫♪

holy abandon, batman!

2011-04-06T22:17:00.004-05:00

i'm not completely gone, i just happened to take up residence elsewhere. come find me. ok ok!

hang up your chick habit

2010-10-13T01:02:00.006-05:00

i think i have an addiction to blogging.
so far i have 3 active blogs going.

my life in blue (my locked livejournal blog)
une fille dificile (a blog i recently started mainly because i found the app on my blackberry lol)
and this one (and it matches my twitter page!)

yep. that's about it.

(i ♥ this episode)

私の生命への歓迎

2010-07-11T22:19:00.002-05:00

so last night (or early this morning), i told nic from filmsnobbery about this blog.
and he posted the link.

who knows if anyone else viewed it, but if you are viewing it now, then by all means, welcome!

and pardon me, i'm a tad obsessed.

thought this was funny.

destiny loses a bet

2010-04-25T02:56:00.002-05:00

i would just like to thank the muse.

please don't ever go away again.

when life is hard, you have to change

2010-04-19T21:48:00.001-05:00

this song has made my life easier these past few days.
i’ve had the worst few days of my entire life (so far).

suddenly i felt i needed a change and thanks to the lovely people i have in my life, i feel like i safely can.
you know who you are.

thank you for saving me.

and i giggle every time.

2010-04-12T13:48:00.005-05:00

lately things have been going well.
a little tired, but trying to get through the days.
i love my job, but i can't wait until this summer when i get to meet up with my girls and see my boys and have a ton of fun.
and that also means new pictures!
w00t.

not a whole lot to say since i'm crunched for time but just checking in to let you know (well the one person who reads this anyway) that all is well :)

a (late) easter egg for y'all.
samm levine on LA Talk Radio: "Film Courage.

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ready for the easter egg?
i'm briefly mentioned @ 27:40
lol yay :)

(and for those who are paying attention - i'm at 76 pages out of 100 for script frenzy. holla!)

i hear it's raining cats and dogs in idaho.

2010-04-01T13:04:00.002-05:00

so things are a bit better than when i last checked in.
today is april fool's day and i tried doing the whole april fools joke and of course 2 people had to blow it for me.
oh well.

so, i took the initiative and have written my first 16 pages for script frenzy.
i'm actually quite excited about it.
this is different from things i've written in the past, in fact, it was an idea i got from a phrase i always use.
"destiny is a liar, she makes me want to cut a bitch." (personifying destiny of course)

this seems like a good thing.
at least i'm happy.

time for cute boy pic pr0n!
(lately i haven't found any new pix of danny to post, so here's the other boy who has the key to my heart. what, a girl can't give out more than one key?! i'm not dead, cheryl.)

sunshine on my window...

2010-03-28T14:19:00.002-05:00

i feel like a walking time bomb.
i'm scared.
i'm depressed.
i'm happy.
i'm delusional.
i'm everything at once and i'm not sure what to do with it.

right now i love life.
i'm happy right where i am, but speaking as a person who loses anything that i'm content with, i feel like it's all about to be taken away at any given moment.
i pray, i scream, i cry, i even thought about casting a spell even though i wouldn't know thing one about how to go about that.

i just want someone to tell me it's okay.
that it's all in my head and to stop worrying.

maybe i just need to go outside and enjoy the sun or whatever.
i'm going to need batteries and a new memory card for my camera.
yes.
let's go do that.

because i can.

2010-03-27T00:38:00.004-05:00

i think i want to do something important.
i want to do something that means something.
i don't want to look around one day and wonder what the hell i did with my life.
i want to be that girl that marches to the beat of her own drum and when you look at her, you either hate her or want to be exactly like her.
i wish i could be outside looking in, just to see what i'm all about.

well, not really.
i think i'd be more afraid of what i'd actually see.
and i'm afraid to ask anybody what they think of me for fear of what they'd say.
or what they wouldn't say because they wouldn't hurt my feelings.

can i get this next one to smile for me?
the other one lights up like a friggin christmas tree.
what will this next one do?

no picture/video this time around.
go download R.E.M's "half a world away".
(make sure you pay for it, ok?)

listen up...

2010-03-15T16:58:00.002-05:00

everyone who knows me knows i kill for caffiene.
if i don't have anything caffinated or sugary in the morning, then i'm just no good for the rest of the day.
that was until i discovered Aquahydrate.

i'm not your regular water drinker - in fact i have said that i don't drink water because fish do bad things in it (lol), but this is different.
Aquahydrate is a purified water that has ionic trace minerals and electrolytes. so it's kinda like a sports drink without the nasty taste and sugar.
it keeps me hydrated and i'm more focused and motivated throughout the day.
i don't drink as much soda anymore and i'm also eating better.
plus i don't drink regular water anymore.
i'm totally spoiled. its aquahydrate or nothing! lol

check them out at their website for retail locations and ordering info!
do it! your body will thank you! mine does :)

(now that i'm done advertising - back to your regularly scheduled program. w00t.)

SO belated...

2010-03-12T23:33:00.004-06:00

happy 28th to the boy who's smile makes me want to turn cartwheels...
(or is it who i've spoken of before???)

:)

only if you must

2010-03-05T01:13:00.002-06:00

have you ever loved someone SO much?
and you don't know why you do, you just... do?

every time you see their silly smile, you just want to turn cartwheels.
and every time they talk to you, it just makes your day.
and you're their favorite!
you want to laugh.
you want to cry.
you want to twirl around until things get all spinny.

and they are the exact opposite of the person you've been obsessing over your entire life?

what have i gotten myself into?

yearning for something new

2010-03-01T23:18:00.004-06:00

i want it to be spring already.
there's something about winter that's depressing.
i love watching each season go through, but sometimes i feel like winter is very domineering.
it's like she comes in and takes over everything, ruins everyone lives and then disappears like a bratty teenage daughter.

to me, spring is a new beginning.
it makes you feel like you're forgiven.
that whatever you've done in the past goes away once the tulips start peeking out and the sun shines.

today was a very sunny day and it was unusually warm that i longed to visit a greenhouse and pick out plants for my various gardens as well as my new flower garden that i'm going to start this year.
i think i'm also going to paint some rooms in this house, beginning with either my bedroom or the living room.
first i need to make a list and a plan-o-gram for my gardens.
this year my roses better come out to play.
they punked out on me last year.

i love this video.
i love this man.

something random to share

2010-02-27T22:15:00.003-06:00

i went on a search for a plum cake recipe - after having watched amélie.
then i stumbled upon this gem:

(note: i did not write this, but i found it hella funny)

DEEE-LISHIUS PLUM CAKE!
A recipe I just made up
And have never baked.
Be the first to try it!

NOTE: I am no chef,
Neither do I have a
Culinary education
But you can stuff it,
Biznatch.

Stuff to get:
6 Plums
3 cups of brown sugar
1⁄4 regular sugar
4 tablespoons of honey
2 tablespoons of cinnamon
Some maple syrup
4 cups of flour
A tablespoon of baking soda
3 eggs
Your mom
2 teaspoons of vanilla
Some crushed almond
Some chocolate chips, why not?
2 tablespoons of butter
0 tablespoons of margarine, screwball
1/5 cup of shredded carrot, it’s good for the eyes
Dr. Pepper
Chocolate frosting, duh
Blueberries (stick with me…)
The Pope
Blue and red food dye

What to do!:!:!:

Punch yourself in the chest

Pre-heat the oven to 400 degrees Fahrenheit, I guess.

Cut up the plums into little bits, like a ninja. But not the pit. That’s gross. No.
Mix the bits with the flour, eggs, both sugars, butter, vanilla, cinnamon, baking soda, almonds, and honey. Then add the food coloring and mix again. Not for the color, but because I love the taste of dye. That’s why I suck on two dollar bills. The super powers are just an added bonus.

Grease yourself up a pan, and put all the stuff inside or whatever, and bake that bitch like a lefty hippie with ten minutes to kill before their anthropology exam.

Er, how long? I dunno, an hour? That seems about right. It’s ready when you poke a toothpick inside and it comes up clean. Make sure part of the toothpick breaks off inside so that way somebody will bite down on it with their stupid gums, and you can laugh at their pain.

Mix chocolate frosting with the syrup, and a bit of dr. pepper, but don’t make it too loose. Just enough. Leave it in the frige to let it kind of settle together. When the cake comes out frost it in this.

Put blueberries on the top, if anybody calls it a blueberry cake, bitchslap them right in the neck. It’s a DEEEE-LISHIUS plum cake, not a fucking boo berry piece of crap, get yourself a hostess pie of you want blueberry so god damn much. Jerk.

Eat it, eat it with a animal passion, like it’s the cure for your misdirected, meaningless, Plan C life. Make lots of guttural sound and crying when you eat.

SAVE LEFTOVERS FOR THE OFFICE, BE A HIT AT THE BOSS’S PARTY, PHOTOCOPY YOUR KNICKERS!

Mix the Pope with your Mom, and I sold the video on the internet, bitch.

i thought it was hilarious.
what!

and now a picture a friend text me and woke me up out of a sound sleep but omg i didn't want to sleep after i saw it...

one step beyond!

2010-02-04T22:50:00.003-06:00

okay okay.
i'm a little busybody so-and-so.
i tend to take things out of context and say things without thinking.

so my friend isn't all that bad. i spent an evening with her, just talking. and talking. and we went to the mall.
she and i are different people. but we're also the same.
i judged her for being who she is and she judged me as well.
so i take back everything i said about her, but i still stand to my "not letting people tell me what to do". and i told her that. i said that i actually enjoy my life and i'm happy where i am. sure things can be better, but right now this is what i have. someday things will be better, but that will be then. this is now.

we're hanging out again next thursday. she wants to hang out this weekend, but i gots a drinkin party to go to that was rescheduled just for me. lol

i long for spring.
i want it to be warm and green and colorful.
i no longer am cut out for this weather.
i'm thinking i should return to the west coast.
but then i'd be far from the peoples i love.
but out west i have more peoples that i love and i miss.
oh the agony of decisions.
lol

no video or pic this time.
run up to someone and take a picture of them.
then laugh at the results.

xoxo

decisions from a soon-to-be former caterpillar

2010-01-30T13:22:00.008-06:00

another month almost come and gone.
did a few things here and there, but a little unhappy about some of them.
i've decided that i'm going to make a few changes and work on a couple of things.

here's my list (alas in no particular order)

- i'm tired of having people tell me what to do CONSTANTLY.
i have a friend (i will not be naming names and if you happen to come across this and know what i'm talking about then perhaps it's you i'm referring to) who deliberately belittles my existance. every time i'm with her she wants to know the exact details of my life. there are some things i don't want to discuss and have kept secret because GDit i want to keep it to myself! there was a certain individual of a certain celebrity (no. not that one) who i may or may not have had a relationship with and her question to me was - "why would they pick you?". i don't know. why WOULDN"T they pick me? should they not pick me because i'm fat? because i'm short? because i'm an interesting lady of latina descent who loves to knit and write and garden and follow the beat of my own drum? why the hell NOT? i happen to make the guy laugh. he lights up whenever he sees me. he GIGGLES whenever something random flies out of my mouth. i don't bow down to him. i'm not like the other girls. THAT is EXACTLY why ME!
and not only that, i've lost weight here and there and i feel pretty damn good about myself. her response? well, you look the same to me. or when i want to do something, she has a page and a half reason why we shouldn't do it.
i understand there was a time when her company was comforting and needed, but lately i feel she's only doing this because she's bored with her own life. she has accomplished pretty much everything she has set out to do so why not try to make someone else's life the way she wants it. a few years ago, she tried it with another friend of mine and was not successful. in fact, this friend really doesn't want to do anything with me if she's around.
so as much as i hate losing friends, i don't believe i want to continue this ongoing 2 decade relationship with something who has such a toxic personality.

- i need to learn to say "no" sometimes. (get your mind(s) out of the gutter)
i like helping people. i like doing things for people. sometimes i don't speak up. therefore making people think i'm a pushover. "oh, dolly will probably do it. just ask her." kind of thing. not quite so. i say "no", but sometimes i choose not to because i believe in karma and feel that people will help me out when i need them. so far this isn't so. not everyone likes to return the favor.
so as much as i'm going to hate it, i'll only say "no" to the ones i know won't help me out later.

- change the channel sometimes
i mean this from an overall standpoint. i want to do things that will make me happy. if i do things i thought would make me happy and don't, i won't take it personally. it was worth a shot. it was my choice.
i'm not going to place all my bets on one table. i'm going to breathe and take a look at the bigger picture.
don't like the show? just change the channel.
if that makes any sense.

here's a picture:
(now don't get too frightened...)

heh.

2010-01-07T22:16:00.002-06:00

i really haven't been in hiding.
i haven't really been doing anything.
work has consumed pretty much my entire life.

this new year doesn't really feel like a new start.
i haven't really made up any resolutions.
i think the one thing i want to work on is myself.
i want to be a good person.
i want to live healthy.
i want to be happy.
i just want to be.

and on that note here's a picture.
(i hauled my cookies all the way to boston in september...)

i love this man...

in my opinion...

2009-09-09T11:17:00.002-05:00

this is the cutest guy ever.

this is the sexiest man alive.

and this is the handsomest little man ever! yesheisyesheis!

oh and look!
i chopped off my hair.

pardon the pic spam.
it had to be done.

w00t.

bored on a friday

2009-08-28T22:06:00.002-05:00

today was my unofficial day off.
i gave today to a girl who needed the hours and since i was going nuts working many many many MANY days in a row, i decided to give it a go.

today i started by making strawberry jam.
since i've only ever made grape jelly and raspberry jam before, i attempted to make strawberry.
right now i have it on the counter setting before i stick it into the refrigerator for 3 weeks.
this is what it looks like.

who knows if this is what its supposed to look like, so i'll wait the full 24 before any decisions are made with this.

and then i made a sourdough starter (which i didn't photograph. why? it's boring. lol the finished product is more photogenic.)
then i whipped up my very favorite grape jelly.

yum. can't wait to spread this bad boy on toast. but i gotta wait a week for it to set. rats. lol

then i got the baking bug and decided to make cupcakes!

and that was my day set to the sounds of jason mraz, mariah carey, the jackson 5, jackie wilson, and the beatles.
good tunes make for amazing treats.
good times.

i'll be baby, you be swayze.

2009-07-05T20:41:00.003-05:00

everybody watch this now.

Dirty Dancin' / The Time of Our Lives

people of society, we will be your family...

2009-06-18T00:58:00.005-05:00

witness this.
learn it.
w00t.

p.s. i've been writing this everywhere. i think it's so cool. i learned a new thing.
拯救地球 means "save the earth" in thai. w00t.

trying out the blogger thingie (flickr is being a jerk)

2009-06-16T21:49:00.009-05:00

i may be slaughtered for what i'm about to post...

kimmie and i on a random stop on our "tour" lol

with chris (the nkotb drummer) outside the venue in grand rizzle.
i think i look a little too happy here. lol

a picture taken by my crappy camera phone to be text to a particular person to alert them of our arrival. lol
(mr. mentiroso said he didn't get it. but you KNOW he totally did.)

here are my girls and i (l-r jen, kimmie, me) as we are in line for the today show on may 8,2009. to see our favorite guys! w00t.

and thus far that is it.
eep. can't forget this gem..
(this is what happens when you don't pay attention to the camera settings BEFORE taking a photo)

ain't nobody gonna break-a my stride...

2009-06-16T03:30:00.004-05:00

lately, i've been pretty bummed.

have you ever tried to make an entire angry beehive happy?
it's not an easy task.
and i've realized that i can't make the stupid bees happy no matter what i do, so i've come to the realization and understanding that bees can just remain pissed. i'm finished.

i can't make the world happy and if they want to stay pissed, let them.
but they need to learn to get the hell over themselves and quit being controlling.
i've had it.
i'm not no friggin nintendo controller, ya know.
i'm not the little mario guy who has to jump on the fanged mushrooms for your amusement.
so put me down punk.

today, i shall remain an individual.
never again, will i let them damn bees sting me.

hooray for dollywood.

now for a little amusement:

i wish i was there...

now tell me you don't just LOVE this...*

2009-06-04T11:04:00.003-05:00

today i'm giggly.
it's a bright, sunshiny day and things are awesome.

w00t.

*so just raise your hand if you don't and i'll go over to your house later and slap you. muahahahahahahaha

i believe i have run out of lemon sweet tea...

2009-05-28T11:51:00.009-05:00

after i graduated high school (a million years ago), i took a year off to just do nothing.
i was tired of school.
i was sick of dealing with everything (anything?).

so i did nothing.
except watch movies.
i took in whatever movie was on TCM or AMC especially.
i never really got into the classics when i was younger, so i figured i'd do it.
in fact, the most classic movie i've ever seen was Help.
and i watched that every day for an entire month my senior year. lol

so then i started falling in love with all these movies.
most of which have since become part of my movie library (and i have a rather large one) and have been viewed over and over - and introduced to many of my friends. lol

the first being Mildred Pierce

i adore this movie.
joan crawford was mad brilliant in this (despite being a crazy bitch in real life lol).
this was made when ms. crawford was starting to be considered a "has-been".
but thanks to hard work and dedication, this gem won her an oscar.

i hated the way faye dunaway portayed joan crawford.
granted, the lady was psycho, but she wasn't an ugly, f'n, C.H.U.D.
(sorry to the Mommie Dearest/faye dunaway fans, but that whole sideshow was just wrong. lol i think the only movie in which i liked faye dunaway, was Supergirl. but i digress... )

hopefully, every once in a while i'll discuss a few more of my favorite movies.
and i DO have many.
lol

and on an unrelated note:

look at my baby all sweaty...
w00t.

**edit**
i just noticed how everyone in this entry looks pissed... lmfao

if i could make a wish, i'd wish you'd be a silly girl just like me...

2009-05-23T21:30:00.006-05:00

i totally want her job.
i heart pj harvey

and then this thing which is super mega awesome

and then now these handsome fellas...

ingles sin barreras - adonde quierra!

2009-05-21T12:16:00.005-05:00

i think i'm in love again...

i don't have netflix anymore, but methinks i need to go back to it... or at least see if blockbuster or hollywood video has it... w00t.

and here's this funny bastard right here:

the dead milkmen are the sh*t. for reals.

i sense there's something in the wind...

2009-05-18T21:44:00.002-05:00

so this afternoon as i was driving to my job to drop off some cookies i made for a friend who's going into surgery tomorrow (and totally missed him by 15 minutes! *sob*), i was singing along to the music in my fake-pod when i noticed that my singing voice has gotten a little deeper.
when i was younger i used to sing soprano. then when i hit my 20s, i became an alto. now i'm an octave away from being a tenor, if i'm not already.

i've always been able to sing along to fiona apple, but now i'm starting to match wits with amanda palmer. and that's freaking sweet! yay!

idk. it was just something weird i noticed. ;)

here are two songs i can sing to now. w00t.
i need to start a band.

stfu, i like this :)

2009-04-24T18:18:00.003-05:00

Twisted Helena

a blog when i feel like it :)

and the award for the cutest couple goes to...

2009-04-14T20:15:00.000-05:00

this was totally his idea. he grabbed me and lead me to the camera. w00t.

(i almost thought this picture was gone forever b/c the company who took it, ILAA, didn't post it to their site and they couldn't find it for a while.)

sweet jeebus, i love this man...

the F**k-it list

2009-03-22T10:48:00.003-05:00

michael ian black came up with the "F**k-it list".
it's a list of things that you do not need to do before you die.

here's mine:

- work at mcdonalds
- get another tattoo
- go skydiving
- watch all the star wars movies
- go to medical school
- marry donald trump
- be paris hilton's bffl
- go clubbing with lindsay lohan
- be brett michael's rock of love
- send a postsecret
- be on american idol
- get knee-walking drunk and try to drive a car
- wake up next to a stranger

and i will keep adding to this list periodically.

always look on the bright side of life whistle

2009-03-19T10:01:00.005-05:00

i'm a tad bit disappointed.
the trip to nashville went without a hitch, but when we got there, that was a different story.
i won't go into details, but i'll just summarize it for you a bit.

smoke.
loud accents.
no sleep.
standing in line to keep them company.
hey look there's chris! one two three, chris!!! BOY!!!! *hug* i got tix. i want passes. text me then. you lie! i NEVER gave you my number!
never get anyone to do something for you (especially if they've NEVER done a 5*. also don't assume things either).
don't be sad.
didn't see my man except for on the stage.
don't EVER follow the group - always stick with the person you're with and do what you always do.
hey, there are two of his kids... omg, am i making them laugh?! *wave, smile, thumbs up*
that damn bus is mine - i'll be damned if you try to get in front of me!
note to self: try not to scare kimmie anymore.
yeah, like they're REALLY going to stop at a waffle house with their kids on the bus while there are a TON of people following. not gonna happen, folks.
hehe the bus is playing with me!
muahahahaha i can control the bus!!!! kimmie, you missed it!
okay. that's as far as i can follow, later bus.

i guess i can't complain. it could have been waaaay worse.
now i have to wait 2 weeks for guaranteed hugs.
i just hope this time it goes much better than the rest.

*le sigh*

no pictures or video today.
go outside and enjoy the sunshine (if you have it)

feliz dia de las mujeres

2009-03-08T13:23:00.005-05:00

today is woman's day.
and it's dark and dreary.
(i'd crack a joke here about God sooo being male, but i'm pretty sure a few of my readers will find that in bad taste, so i won't. anyway, a joke like that wouldn't be true in the least.)

i'm actually happy today about being a woman.
i look around and i see that we have come a looong way.
although we're not completely equal to men (thanks to the awful minority of pigs out there - we may even be a bit more superior. lol), it's nice to see that we don't have to sit at the back of the bus or that there aren't men's entrances and ladies entrances (except for bathrooms - although there are co-ed bathrooms) or made to sit still while a man is talking or hold up a wall while waiting for that choice guy to ask you to dance and it never comes or even have to sit in the ladies parlor while our husbands go vote.
(heck, i would have been considered a spinster and shunned for never wanting to marry and live up to the "roles" i was destined for - mother, wife, doormat.)

i would have never made it before the '60s.
i'm actually kinda glad to be born when i was born.

and now here's a video from one of my favorite women.

hey you, over here

2009-03-01T14:00:00.004-06:00

so today would be a fabulous day for being outside if it weren't so cold.
today is also one of those days where i don't feel like wearing clothes.
but unfortunately, my family and their friend is home and if i want to be nekkid i have to be so in my own room.
then again, i don't have a lock.
and people in this joint don't knock.

i want to go outside and take pictures.
i want to go chill in my garden.
i am so ansty and so restless, i want to jump out of my own skin (hence, the desire to lack clothing).

15 days and i get to see him.
14 days until i see my bff.

i wonder what it's going to be like this time.

hmm...
i wonder...

a little twist of madness

2009-02-25T12:07:00.007-06:00

i would have to say that out of all the things i have online (youtube channels, livejournals, facebook, myspace, twitter, nk profile page), this would have to be my most favorite.
don't get my wrong, i love all my little thingies online, but i love this one the most.
is it the colors?
is it the pictures?
is it the many random rants and bouts of happiness?

i'm not sure.
my blogger just gives me a ton of joy.
although i DO need to do more on this.
maybe add more pictures (new ones of course, time to break out the camera), recipes or projects i'm working on.
maybe add some reviews.
i dunno.
even if i'm the only one who things this blog is interesting, i'm happy to say that it's mine.
my little piece of madness to cackle over.

here's a video.

god i love her.

(p.s 19 days!)

royale with cheese

2009-02-12T21:49:00.003-06:00

there really isn't anything new going on.
tomorrow is friday the 13th and the day after is valentines day.

someone at work asked me if i think valentines day is a big deal.
i told them no.
apparently she was trying to prove to someone that it was.
i think any "holiday" that was created by a greeting card company to make everyone feel bad about being single shouldn't be celebrated.
unless of course, we all get the day off.
i'm not sad i'm single, but i don't need a heartless corporation telling me i should fix something that ain't broken.

but i think i should make cupcakes anyway.
cupcakes are the solution to all.

here's a video:

too many, too little...

2009-02-10T12:07:00.006-06:00

okay, so i've been thinking about things and i've realized that much of my time has been spent working.
and the rest of my time either sleeping or watching random junk on the idiot box.
so i've decided to take it upon myself to do what i call, "too many, too little".

firstly, 1001 books you must read before you die.
and then the afterdark horrorfest (aka 8 films to die for)

okay, so the last one is unecessary and sort of a fluke, but to be part of the horrorfest is my dream, so i have to check out the competition.

time to whip out the library card and the blockbuster membership!
w00t

here's another from the archives:

**edit** 6:27 pm

nuts. i found another list.
1001 movies you must see before you die

i'm gonna be one bizy lady.

aren't we all battery powered?

2009-02-08T21:02:00.003-06:00

i seriously think i need to read more.
lately i've been listening to a lot of new music and watching more independent film.
i've even started writing again.

but i need to read.
and i don't mean fiction (i find that i'm not able to read fiction while i'm writing).
i want to read something that will teach me about life and about the way the world works, etc.

maybe i should go digging in the garage.
my sister has a ton of books that she's packed up and pushed away.

nothing doing, just a random thought that i need to release.

i also found out that ben lee married ione skye last month.
where have i been?

now one from the archives:

sorry this looks horrible.
this was before the digital camera and with a disposable one.
yikes.
this will never happen again.

good day sunlight...

2009-02-06T12:47:00.003-06:00

today i can say i am genuinely happy (which is rare).
it's my day off after a really exhausting week (lots of drama).
even though i'm supposed to be trying to sleep in, i've been up for a couple of hours and now i'm waiting for my mom to wake up because she totally promised to take me out for breakfast. lol
i've lost 3 lbs since monday. (yay!)
and i get to see my man in 38 days! (i just want to be in his arms again. and i'm pretty sure he's not going to deny me that. lol)

today i am happy.
and thank god it's friday.

no picture today, so just go smile in the mirror.
:)

boop boop

2009-02-03T00:15:00.002-06:00

i think i must be the most boring person in america.
but all that aside, i've returned to writing.
my lovelies have been neglected for this entire time of me chasing after a certain boy, and now that i'm on hiatus, i've returned to my original love.

i am happy.
and a little sad.
a little crazy.
but a little ... i can't place mad here because i'm not.
bad?
fad?
rad?

oh well.
"it's times like these we learn to live again."

here, have a picture.

i'm like way famous now...

2008-12-29T23:08:00.004-06:00

Find more videos like this on New Kids on the Block

(missed me? i'm the chick in the black pleather jacket and zebra print bag lol)

and we also made it on the ryan seacrest website. w00t!

and so passes another great love of my life...

2008-12-12T13:39:00.003-06:00

i was always considered the weird one in my group.
a hetero female in love with three women. joan jett, kd lang, and bettie page.

today i'm sad.

Bondage Babe Bettie Page Dies at 85

LOS ANGELES (AP) - Bettie Page, the 1950s secretary-turned-model whose controverisal photographs in skimpy attire or none at all helped set the stage for the 1960s sexual revolution, died Thursday. She was 85.

Page suffered a heart attack last week in Los Angeles and never regained consciousness, her agent Mark Roesler said. Before the heart attack, Page had been hospitalized for three weeks with pneumonia."

She captured the imagination of a generation of men and women with her free spirit and unabashed sensuality," Roesler said. "She is the embodiment of beauty."

Page, who was also known as Betty, attracted national attention with magazine photographs of her sensuous figure in bikinis and see-through lingerie that were quickly tacked up on walls in military barracks, garages and elsewhere, where they remained for years.

Her photos included a centerfold in the January 1955 issue of then-fledgling Playboy magazine, as well as controversial sadomasochistic poses.

bettie page [dot] com

do you hear me talking to you...

2008-11-19T21:26:00.004-06:00

wow. i never realized how boring my life is when i don't have anything but work to do.
my tour has ended and i have some fabulous memories and i'm now forever a permanent memory in a certain new kid's brain. ;)
(oh yeah, you can't EVER forget me... lol)

and i have a ton of pix that are still up on my camera, but i haven't been able to get them uploaded since the software has been MIA for a while. and i haven't brought myself to spend, what, $2 on a picture disk at walmart. eventually. someday. okay. thank you.

right now the only exciting thing going on is that i have a root canal coming up on friday morning. finally. i'm tired of pain.

that is all.

*end transmission*

go vote or i'll haunt you*

2008-11-04T12:57:00.000-06:00

*think i'm kidding?

t'es sur que c'est moi

2008-09-13T23:41:00.002-05:00

i really don't know what's going on.
do you know that one saying "when something is going good in your life, something else has to crumble?"
something like that.

not that anything's crumbling, but things just don't make sense anymore.
it's like i'm in "weetzie bat" and she just made her 3 wishes.
a house, a duck for dirk, and her secret agent lover man.
something.

it's just a little bit twisted.
and i don't understand.

can anyone tell me what's going on?
i hope i don't ever wake up.

something like that.

sorry for being so cryptic, but that's how it's supposed to be, i guess.

oops i did it again!

2008-09-03T13:24:00.005-05:00

guess who went to nyc this weekend and had the greatest time of her life!

god, i love this man.

oh what a noble distinguished collection of fine metal friends you have made...

2008-08-24T03:18:00.005-05:00

i can't get enough of this song!
it reminds me of a nice, crisp autumn day. i just want to twirl around and around and fall into a pile of leaves with my arms outstretched and inhale and smile as the trees around me turn red, yellow, and orange.
amanda palmer is soooo brilliant and so beautiful. she makes me grateful that i can hear (if that makes any sense).

yeah.
oh, on another note... guess who i met 2 weekends ago?

anything on him look familiar?
(i'll give you a hint. it's spikey and it's given me a lot of luck over the years...)
*giggle*

and more cool news! guess who lost 50 lbs so far?

*does a little happy tap dance*

i bring you this ...

2008-08-19T09:38:00.003-05:00

remember it. study it.

lol

and now for something completely different...

2008-07-10T13:10:00.005-05:00

elephone - "el jefe" off of their new album "canister" due out in stores july 15th!

and because a post isn't a post without:

reasons #465 and #466 on why people need a good shaking

2008-07-09T20:37:00.003-05:00

#465
at work today this girl i worked with was having problems with this woman who spoke broken english. they couldn't understand each other. after the transaction was completed and the woman left, the girl turns to me and says, "if you're gonna live in this country you gotta learn to talk english good."and i said, "present company included, right?"

#466
robert schwartzman from rooney posted this bulletin today:

Hello,

My shirt was just taken from the tour bus. It was hanging outside to dry after the Tucson show. Someone took it and I would like it back. It was my favorite shirt. It is red. If you have any information or if you are the person who took it, please right your wrong and return it. Thank you.

Robert

that's just wrong. someone needs an a$$ flogging right now. you don't go around stealing people's stuff. even IF they're famous.

and now something to keep me sane:

go on and take a bow

2008-07-04T00:39:00.002-05:00

this isn't very much an update as it's something i just felt like doing.
lol
i've noticed as of late that i've been neglecting a lot of things (and people).
i haven't started a new film yet, something i should have already done like 2 months ago.
we have scripts, but nothing's been initiated.
sometimes i feel like i'm going crazy.
i feel like i'm in a box and someone's taping it shut.
it's not a terrible thing, i just have so much going on that i don't know exactly where to begin.
and lately work has been taking a lot of my time.
i'm either working during the day or during the night or sometimes both.
i need a really really really long vacation.
on a beach or a lovely countryside.

and i'd bring this guy along...

lol because this blog isn't a blog without a picture of danny...

you give me nice dreams...

2008-07-02T00:42:00.002-05:00

and so it's july.
it's amazing how fast time is flying.
soon i'll be 31.
yipes.
but cool thing is that people don't believe me when i tell them my age.
in fact, the other day one of my co-workers demanded to see my ID.
then he called me a liar with my fake id.
that's pretty sweet.
and it's awesome that i still get carded at clubs and such.
thanks to my mom and her awesome genes.
*w00t*

and oh yes...
happy (late) canada day!

oh dah doo dah knight...

2008-06-27T01:54:00.002-05:00

and so i finally made it into the 21st century and bought this:

a Canon 8.0MP Digital Camera, PowerShot A590 IS. yay!

i took it with me on my mini break last weekend to missouri and took some sweet pix. but the only problem is, i need to actually get my rear in gear and upload the pix to show. lol
but will i? that's the real question here.
ah well. lol eventually.

so anyway, i need to figure out how to stash this baby when i go to my shows in the fall b/c i found out that my purse-like bras no longer fit (yeah, i stash my phone and etc in my bra b/c things always fall out of my pockets) since losing 25 lbs these last couple months.
and the bras i have now don't like to hold anything. lol and i highly doubt i'll be carrying a purse as i hate being searched.
what's a girl to do? *snicker*

still have a few months left to sort out details.

p.s why are boys so stupid? is it a chemical thing?

what a night!

2008-06-18T00:42:00.006-05:00

celts beat lakers 131-92!
this is their 17th NBA championship and their first since 1986!

it's the awesomest thing ever!

and for a little extra added goodness...

after how long and NOW a real entry?

2008-06-06T20:06:00.005-05:00

and so after a couple months of insanity, i believe i might have dropped back down into reality (for now...).
there hasn't been too much going on, just working and working and working.
and i think there were a couple times where i wanted to quit my job and go elsewhere, but so far things have been better and i think i'm going to stay right where i am. i mean, how many places give insurance and sunday's off? besides, contrary to popular belief, it's the easiest job in the world - if you don't mind having total strangers go off like toddlers and throw fits over stupid crap - no matter how friggin hilarious it is. lol
when i think about it, this time in my life is probably the best i've ever experienced. (crappy childhood + awkward, nightmarish adolescence + mediocre 20s = awesome 30s?!)
i think i'm good where i am.
and that, my friends... is good :)

my friend jen took this shot when she went to the today show. i am now officially jealous of her. lol

does a little happy dance

2008-06-04T19:17:00.002-05:00

you are probably tired of hearing this...

but guess who got 5* VIP for vegas?!

*jumps up and down screaming like a fangirl*

good luck to the celts tomorrow night!

another fangirl moment, brought to you by the hypno-toad!

2008-06-02T20:47:00.003-05:00

guess who got 5* vip to the second chicago show?

*jumps around and squees*

i'm like a machine... lol

still alive :)

2008-05-30T02:59:00.002-05:00

my boy at game 7. *w00t*

game 5 is tonight... cross your fingers that the celtics kick a$$ lol

no. i'm serious.
:)

and yet, the sun is still shining...

2008-05-17T12:48:00.004-05:00

i'm kinda bummed today. i wasn't able to get tix for the atlantic city show, but as i see it 2 outta 3 ain't bad.
i still have boston and chicago (VIP BABY!!!! YEAH!!!!). those suckers sold out in 2 minutes!!

oh well, no reason why we still can't go... hehe ;)

here's a picture of my guy getting down on the today show... *drool*

and another for good measure...

i'm gonna keep talking about this until i'm blue in the face - infinity

2008-05-07T00:16:00.002-05:00

and so after all of this, i was thinking to myself.
"self?" i said.
"yes?" i answered.
"remember how many many times i said 'i wish something great would happen.'?"
"you know, i'm pretty sure i do remember. i almost kicked you for talking like a broken record."
"yeah. so anyway, DIDN'T something great happen?"
then suddenly, a smile spread across my face. it did happen. something fantastic and wonderful, at the same time, happened - or will be happening. in fact, this is something i've dreamt of since i was 12.

i'm almost kind of scared i'll wake up from this awesome dream...

here's a cute video:

still hasn't sunk in...

2008-05-05T23:57:00.003-05:00

and so i have a sore throat and i think i pulled something in my neck and shoulders (screaming will do that to you lol) - but i almost feel like it's all a dream.
and i don't think i'll be able to believe it until my ticket and laminate are in my hand.
how am i going to live 'til october?

oh agony! oh rapture! how will i live?!
lol

here's a nice photo of my guy on the ryan seacrest show this morning:

**edit**
here's another of my man lookin' all sleepy... hehe

happy cinco de mayo!

2008-05-05T10:25:00.001-05:00

i am so beside myself with elatedness....you are talking to the proud owner of an NKOTB VIP ticket for their chicago, il show.
i stayed up all night and waited... and waited... listened to the guys on the ryan seacrest show... waited.then bam! they went on sale without warning... and I GOT ONE!!!!this is what i'll be getting...

Each 5 Star VIP package includes:
- A ticket in the first 10 rows!
- 5 Star souvenir laminate
- Meet and greet - photo op!
- Pre-show party!
- Exclusive New Kids on the Block gift bag!
- Parking
- Crowd-free merchandise shopping!
- Discount coupon to the New Kids on the Block online store

i don't care about the last 3, but omg! meet and greet?! even if for only a few seconds, i'd be the happiest girl in the world!you have no idea girls, i screamed once i got my confirmation email - then i started crying (something i have never done - even when i went and saw them when i was 13 - but i had nosebleed seats...).i am sooo excited and so happy and i don't think i'm going to be able to sleep - i have to be at work at 4 so i need to take a nap or i'll be dead tonight.

happy cinco de mayo, indeed ;)

wigetness!

2008-05-01T19:56:00.001-05:00

hooray for dolly wood. lol

just do it. whatever it is. whatever it is.

2008-04-24T22:29:00.005-05:00

and so, i've decided not to plant seeds this year.
i think it's much more practical (and time saving) to plant already made seedlings. that way i can plan my garden out better and not worry about wasting money on seeds that are going to die because of this stupid weather.
although, today it may have been rainy, it was warm and nice and it was a nice change for once.
but according to my friend laura it may snow on monday or tuesday.
i am hoping not because this is just plain ridiculous and no one wants to see an unhappy dolly. nuh uh.
so lately i've been knitting a lot, because i either want to open up a stand at a farmer's market or an online store (not quite sure yet). so far, i've mostly made dish cloths and scarves and mostly breast cancer awareness related.
this is my new crusade that i've decided to take on along with peta, rainn, domestic violence, and the dulaan project.
in fact, i've found a site for a foundation that i've decided to donate my breast cancer item proceeds to.
it's the betty wood breast cancer foundation. it's a really beautiful, heartfelt site put together by danny wood (mr. #1). when i first came to the site a year ago and read his stories, i cried. it just completely broke my heart. i mean, i love my mother to pieces and i just can't imagine my life without her. danny is an awesome son to be doing this for his mother. so if you happen to visit this site, i ask you from the bottom of my heart and soul to please donate! it might possibly be one of the nicest things you could ever do.

now, i will go to bed. but i will leave you with this. not only is he fabulous and dreamy, he's a terrific musician.

come on get happy!

2008-04-22T23:36:00.002-05:00

guess what, people?
i am terrifically happy.
and it never happens. at least not for days at a time, anyway.
i am so happy i could just burst like marlena in cloverfield.
(okay, bad bursting reference. lol)
people think i'm in love.
i really don't think i am, although it kinda feels like it. but i haven't been in love for AGES and AGES.
i think finally those little black rain clouds are gone.
hopefully forever.
tee hee.

but i still don't smile very much (not like i ever really have anyway).
today at work i had a customer tell me to smile. and i responded with, "i'm apache. i don't gotta smile." LMAO.

time go to be happy and watch cloverfield.
yay.

rock on!

flip flops to church. ho yeah!

2008-04-20T17:34:00.006-05:00

i feel like a kid again.
seriously.
(yes. thanks to the whole nkotb reunion. omg, are you kidding me?! ahhhh!!!!)

anyway. i've noticed something.
i have a new attitude. i used to worry about so much and about stupid things that i was constantly feeling inferior. but you know, lately i've had this whole "screw it" attitude. like the whole, "nobody's gonna breaka my stride..." thing. it's hard to explain, but trust me on this one.
plus i'm on this whole new health kick.
i've stopped eating less. weird, huh?
my mom keeps asking me if i'm in love. i'm in love with life, how about it?
the weather outside describes my feeling inside. warm and sunshiny.

it's about time, eh?

here's #1!!!! in fact come to think of it, he takes 2, 3, and 4. (muahahahahahahahaha)

dear prudence, i think you're better off saying inside. i think the sun went home.

2008-04-12T18:36:00.000-05:00

you know, i don't think i can stand this weather anymore.
first it snows forever, then it rains, then it snows and it rains, now it's just cold.
i'm getting tired of this whole thing.
i say we all get into a ship and head for another planet that hasn't been corrupted by the evils of environmental endangerment.
one that hasn't been forever (?) screwed by selfish, wasteful, horrible beings. but then it'd be messed up by the new crew that finds it. and we'd be screwed all over again.
maybe i should just build my own biosphere. an adam and eve project of sorts. so if i'm eve, who will be my adam? who will be the jude to my lucy? the mickey to my mallory?
*cackles at the possibilities*

but you know. "through the pleasure and pain, the sunshine and rain, baby we keep on smilin'..."
it could be a lot worse and i don't think we'll be seeing it any time soon. we're just not there yet.
now for some massive joliesse...

oh my gosh, shut up shut up!

2008-04-10T21:05:00.005-05:00

(sorry this post is a little late, inventory prep going on at work and long hours)

on april 4th, 2008, this was announced on the today show.

i think i might explode. i really do.
oh my gee. i feel like i'm 12 years old again.

rainy day off

2008-03-31T10:26:00.006-05:00

what's music to my ears?
a thunderstorm @ 4:30 am.
i looked out my window and saw it raining! you have no idea (well, maybe you do) how fantastic i felt.
then later this morning, i checked the weather channel and we're expecting cloudiness and rain.
heck, that's better than snow.

now to leave you with my new love:
(this one kicks the #1 out of the #1 spot - heh, not really, but he's pretty darn close. #1 could probably snap him like a twig with his muscley self. moby hasn't a chance! oh well. cage fight over me? taking all bets!)

yay! it's thundering!

wooden chu no ut?

2008-03-26T23:02:00.005-05:00

so it snowed the day after my sunny day.
i was so mad.
so i put off buying seeds and other springy things until i'm absolutely sure that winter is absolutely, completely finished.
but it might snow sometime soon, i might just pack up my stuff and head for california or something. miami? (i don't know... i don't think i want to go to miami again. even IF danny lives there...)
i am sick to death of this weather.
i hate going to work freezing my tootsies off, then leaving work at the end of my shift and chucking my heavy coat in the back seat because it's in the 50s.
i'm sick of feeling sluggish and weighted.
i am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
i'm ansty to get out and do something with my sad looking yard.
maybe in april.

sunshine, sunshine do not go away.

2008-03-20T13:18:00.002-05:00

happy happy spring!
and what a gorgeous one it is!
i went out to get my mail a little while ago and i was able to go outside in a t-shirt and jeans (with of course my neon fluffly slippers lol).
i'm soooo excited about the upcoming better weather.
this morning there was a little frost on the ground, but it all went away.
now it's time to get some stuff planted and cheerful once more.

here's my favorite spring movie, Return to Me.
(it's not about a spring, it's just one i watch IN the spring because of the gorgeous garden one of the characters has and it just makes me more hopeful.)

la la la la la means achoo

2008-03-15T01:52:00.003-05:00

have you noticed how for the one person that doesn't like you, there are about 5 that do?
there's this girl i work with and for some reason (i think she just has a bad attitude altogether) she thinks i'm annoying (she's mentioned this to other people) and is just plain mean to me.
i don't believe i've ever done anything to provoke her (except maybe be nice and cheerful lol) and although everyone tells me just to blow her off, it kind of bothers me.
you know, you just can't let things like that go. at least i can't. i try and be friends with everyone, but when you lose a vote it's just doesn't feel good.
lately, i've just been saying, "it's okay. it's not me, it's her. it's not me, it's her." like my friend debbie says, "it's not you. she's the one with the stick up her a**." lol i love her!
you can't win them all, i guess.
but i do have some good friends at work. we all kinda drive each other crazy at times, but we like each other. and that's good.
what's that saying? "i'm good enough. i'm smart enough. and doggone it, people like me!"

so, lately i've been trying my darndest at fighting a cold.
everyone at work has been sick, so even with airbourne, it was kind of hard to avoid it.
i've been sneezing alot, my voice has been coming and going, and i have a slight cough, but it's not too bad.

i don't have any pictures or anything to close this post... oh wait, maybe i do.

happy st. patty's everyone!

sick.

2008-03-12T18:27:00.003-05:00

ugh.
i am trying really really REALLY hard not to get sick. for the last couple of days i've had a sore throat, but today it's kind of scratchy with a little cough. i've been taking dayquil and zicam and eating oranges. so i'm not as bad as i should be.
*KNOCK WOOD*

rebel rebel your face is a mess

2008-03-06T13:37:00.007-06:00

and so, i do not feel like doing anything today, except get my paycheck and hang out in the gardening department of random stores.
i want to go buy new clothes, since i bought shoes on my last paycheck, but i have to save some money in case my dental insurance won't cover the majority of my root canal on the 18th. (bit w00t :p)
it's sunny outside, but the snow still won't go away. i see greenish brown in places, but i'm kind of sick of this already.
i think i need to do a detox or something. lately, i've been feeling really sluggish and it's not like i've gained a lot of weight this winter, but i've been feeling really frumpy as well.
which reminds me, i have to go to the market for some fruits and stuff. my sister got a new smoothie cookbook and i think i'm going to incorporate some delicious drinks in my diet instead of junk.
i've been having really bad eating habits lately. i don't have time for breakfast, so i drink a soda in the morning. then around lunchtime i either have m&ms or beef jerky or whatever - sometimes nothing. then for dinner i eat whatever i make or what someone else makes. and i chew gum all day long.
i'm so not healthy. i need to get my butt in gear now that i have medical insurance (finally! after like 10 years, right?) and find a regular physician.
okay, this is a really getting to be a boring blog post so i'm going to post a picture so that this post was not done in vain. lol

now i'm gonna get up and go do something. time to go get some money. heh.

the "setting the kitchen on fire with dolly" show

2008-03-04T19:28:00.016-06:00

i LOVE cooking shows.
if i had my own way, i'd have my OWN cooking show.

in fact i do this:
(p.s. this isn't my postsecret)

here are some chefs i admire.

this is g. garvin. i LOVE watching his show on tvOne on sundays.
he's that type of chef who cooks with their hands and doesn't use wussy measuring cups and such. lol lately, i've been cooking that way. i let my sense of taste and smell decide how much of what is needed.
i love the shows in which he's outside working at a bbq.
everything he makes looks fantastic that i want to write him a fan letter asking if i can come over to his house for dinner sometime. or heck, he can come over here and cook for me!
if you'd like to know more about him check him out @ chefgarvin.com

this is lidia. she has this fantastic show on pbs.
i swear, everything she makes looks like a work of art.
this is the way i dream of cooking. it's always been my dream to make the most fantastic italian cuisine imagined.
in fact, i'm going to use a lot of her recipes when i have my dinner party in the spring/summer.
check her out @ lidiasitaly.com

rachael ray. (shut up. i like her!)
her 30 minute meals and $40 a day show are the ones i watch. (i'm not that big a fan of her talk show and i never really watch it
(except that one show in which she had christopher meloni. *rawr*)
she's another one who doesn't really use measuring cups.
i think that's always impressed me. my mom never used measuring cups either and she's a fabulous cook.
a lot of people don't like rachael because they think she's annoying and blah blah blah, but everything she makes looks easy and delicious, so y'all who don't like her can suck it ;)

check her out @ rachaelray.com

so this year i'm going to be having a 7 course meal dinner party.
time to plan and make my house look classy ;)

even a deserted tropical island sounds good to me

2008-03-02T21:25:00.003-06:00

i got a few of my gardening catalogues in the mail.
wish for spring wish for spring
i am sooooo sick of the ice age.
the snow seems like it's starting to melt, but no way to tell if it's going to be permanent.
*le sigh*

here is a video about a spring.
(sorry, couldn't find anything seasonal. just literal. it's still hilarious.)

spoke too soon...

2008-02-25T18:39:00.002-06:00

and so it is snowing again today.
yesterday was a fantastic day - so warm with its 30 degree self. i didn't wear my coat to church, just a sweater and a scarf.

today everyone seems to be in a terrible, grouchy mood. especially me. i have this headache that won't go away and to top it off, i was eating french bread pizza and one of my molars broke in half. i'm not in any pain or anything, but tomorrow i have to call the dentist. i hope he can either take me tomorrow after work or wednesday which is my day off.

will this terrible weather end? i got a gardening catalogue in the mail today and i'm starting to go crazy. this cold needs to stop. seriously. he has to pack up his stuff and go home now. his mama is calling him.

squee-ness!

2008-02-24T00:42:00.003-06:00

someone seriously needs to buy me this...

the cloverfield monster!

it would totally stay in the box forever... even though i adore this monster, i'd be too scared to touch it! lol

**edit!**
here's an updated cloverfield description page (complete with monster's roar!)

oh my goodness! is that sunshine?!

2008-02-13T13:20:00.002-06:00

so my day off consists of sun.
hooray.
too bad it's too cold to enjoy it.

anyway. this is my current favorite video:

ben lee rocks my socks.
although he rolls in second next to jason schwartzman -- alright 3rd -- because then there's also robert schwartzman. no wait. 4th, because then there's danny wood who shoves them all down a couple notches where he presides as 1st. lmao. i'm so fickle.

w00t.

little annoyances like chia pets and bubbles

2008-02-11T20:07:00.000-06:00

one of the things that annoys me is when people brag about things that they're supposed to already be doing.

ie.
today as i was ringing up a customer, i reached over to get a bag for a shirt she'd just bought.
her: oh, it's okay. i don't need a bag. we're already so wasteful and i need to eliminate a lot of waste. it's good for the environment.
me: *crickets chirping* (i just look at her)
her: (realizing that i'm not going to bust out and sing "for she's a jolly good fellow") i know. whoop-dee-doo. right?

does she honestly think i'm going to bake her a cake or something?
i do realize that the enviroment is in dire need of saving and doing your part to help should be as natural as wiping yourself.
and i also realize that there are some that do and there are some that don't. but, seriously, bragging about doing your part for the environment is about as pointless as boasting, "i look both ways before i cross the street." because you should be doing that already.

i'm just annoyed today.

i used to like snow...

2008-02-07T09:04:00.000-06:00

yesterday, whilst all the stores were closing around us, our store stayed open.
there was a mad, bad blizzard where people kept flying off the road and our store stayed open.
the power went out and the registers stopped working until they turned on the generator and our store stayed open.
you couldn't see across the street and yet, the store stayed open.

i don't mean to be crude, but i'm beginning to realize why our store is called "Dick's".

here's a picture that i took of the front of the store.

today, i'm off and i'm not doing anything except watch across the universe and knit.

jeebuz wept with the iams.

2008-01-29T23:29:00.001-06:00

you know when your knitting means more to you than other stuff, when you go through what i've just been through.

i have an elderly cat who really hates iams, but we can't get the brand of food he wants (he's a meow mix/friskies boy) because it makes another of our cats really really sick. so he eats it anyway with no problems.
well, just a little while ago he snaps out of his catnap and starts to retch.
i kind of shove him off the couch so he doesn't soul cough on the printer which is right next to him. then i race off the couch when i see him with his head in my knitting basket. i clamp my hand over his mouth and pick him up. he then proceeds to puke in my hand and as i move my hand away, it lands on my expensive vegan earth shoes.
then i say with a sigh of relief, "oh! you didn't get sick on my knitting. good boy!"

now my shoes are kinda ruined. eh. not really, they're made of hemp, it can wash off.
lol

*edit* i was just informed that he was fed a large amount of cat treats.
yep. that'll do it.

ravelry.

2008-01-28T21:18:00.000-06:00

i've decided that i'm going to make mine a life of importance.
not that it isn't already, but i feel a sense of anonymity when i don't allow myself to be seen.
i'm going to post my projects here to let you know what all i'm doing with my time.
(besides boring ol' work.)

now to get a decent digital camera to record my progress.
next goal.
lol

the dollhouse

2008-01-06T15:47:00.002-06:00

this is my first attempt at filmmaking. i promised a few people that i'd post this sad piece. lol
it took us forever to make this because our cast had keep being replaced over and over.
then when we finally had a cast we were happy with, things happened and the cast was shuffled and the script revised at the last minute, so here's our end result.
enjoy.
(and don't laugh too hard...)

if you can't view it, then it will be on youtube shortly.

also here's the direct link, if needed : the dollhouse

hopefully then soon the others will follow. the better ones. i just have to pry them from the editor/cameraman's hands. lol

awake is the new sleep...

2008-01-06T15:36:00.000-06:00

so i finally remembered that this blog existed.
(yay jamie! i restarted it for you!)
and it contained nothing but incessant chatter, so i've decided to just delete it all and start over.
this is where people can find me if they don't want to look on myspace or facebook.
i think i'll talk a lot more on here.

that is if i have something to say or ... what's that word? oh yeah.. TIME.
but lately time has been alright, so maybe i'll be on here more.
and i love youtube, so if i have nothing to say, i'll post a video. lol

cheers.

michael rennie was ill the day the earth stood still...

1977-07-27T05:53:00.002-05:00

on this day:
- john lennon was granted a green card for permanent residence in the US.
- jonathan rhys meyers was also born (w00t. i always knew he was cool.)
- in the US, the number one song in the charts was "looks like we made it" by barry manilow and in the UK, it was "i feel love" by donna summer.
- a dozen eggs cost .82 cents.
- and my man was 8 years old. (no picture. sorry. lol)

and the weather in oblivion, il:

high temp: 77F (103F record)
low temp: 53F (46F record)
average temp: 83F
dewpoint: 51F
wind speed: 0 mph
precipitation amount: 0.00

and this was an awesome show on tv (no wonder it's my favorite!!)