sunshine on my window...
3.28.2010
i feel like a walking time bomb.
i'm scared.
i'm depressed.
i'm happy.
i'm delusional.
i'm everything at once and i'm not sure what to do with it.

right now i love life.
i'm happy right where i am, but speaking as a person who loses anything that i'm content with, i feel like it's all about to be taken away at any given moment.
i pray, i scream, i cry, i even thought about casting a spell even though i wouldn't know thing one about how to go about that.

i just want someone to tell me it's okay.
that it's all in my head and to stop worrying.

maybe i just need to go outside and enjoy the sun or whatever.
i'm going to need batteries and a new memory card for my camera.
yes.
let's go do that.

i wonder what bobby is thinking about here.
posted by dolly at 2:19 PM | 0 comments

because i can.
3.27.2010
i think i want to do something important.
i want to do something that means something.
i don't want to look around one day and wonder what the hell i did with my life.
i want to be that girl that marches to the beat of her own drum and when you look at her, you either hate her or want to be exactly like her.
i wish i could be outside looking in, just to see what i'm all about.

well, not really.
i think i'd be more afraid of what i'd actually see.
and i'm afraid to ask anybody what they think of me for fear of what they'd say.
or what they wouldn't say because they wouldn't hurt my feelings.

can i get this next one to smile for me?
the other one lights up like a friggin christmas tree.
what will this next one do?

no picture/video this time around.
go download R.E.M's "half a world away".
(make sure you pay for it, ok?)
posted by dolly at 12:38 AM | 0 comments

listen up...
3.15.2010
everyone who knows me knows i kill for caffiene.
if i don't have anything caffinated or sugary in the morning, then i'm just no good for the rest of the day.
that was until i discovered Aquahydrate.

i'm not your regular water drinker - in fact i have said that i don't drink water because fish do bad things in it (lol), but this is different.
Aquahydrate is a purified water that has ionic trace minerals and electrolytes. so it's kinda like a sports drink without the nasty taste and sugar.
it keeps me hydrated and i'm more focused and motivated throughout the day.
i don't drink as much soda anymore and i'm also eating better.
plus i don't drink regular water anymore.
i'm totally spoiled. its aquahydrate or nothing! lol

check them out at their website for retail locations and ordering info!
do it! your body will thank you! mine does :)

mr. pink loves the aquahydrate

(now that i'm done advertising - back to your regularly scheduled program. w00t.)
posted by dolly at 4:58 PM | 0 comments

SO belated...
3.12.2010
happy 28th to the boy who's smile makes me want to turn cartwheels...
(or is it who i've spoken of before???)





:)
posted by dolly at 11:33 PM | 0 comments

only if you must
3.05.2010
have you ever loved someone SO much?
and you don't know why you do, you just... do?

every time you see their silly smile, you just want to turn cartwheels.
and every time they talk to you, it just makes your day.
and you're their favorite!
you want to laugh.
you want to cry.
you want to twirl around until things get all spinny.

and they are the exact opposite of the person you've been obsessing over your entire life?


what have i gotten myself into?


the person i've been obsessing over my entire life... XD
posted by dolly at 1:13 AM | 0 comments

yearning for something new
3.01.2010
i want it to be spring already.
there's something about winter that's depressing.
i love watching each season go through, but sometimes i feel like winter is very domineering.
it's like she comes in and takes over everything, ruins everyone lives and then disappears like a bratty teenage daughter.

to me, spring is a new beginning.
it makes you feel like you're forgiven.
that whatever you've done in the past goes away once the tulips start peeking out and the sun shines.

today was a very sunny day and it was unusually warm that i longed to visit a greenhouse and pick out plants for my various gardens as well as my new flower garden that i'm going to start this year.
i think i'm also going to paint some rooms in this house, beginning with either my bedroom or the living room.
first i need to make a list and a plan-o-gram for my gardens.
this year my roses better come out to play.
they punked out on me last year.

i love this video.
i love this man.


posted by dolly at 11:18 PM | 0 comments